Stay Strong...what does this mean to me???

"Stay strong" is no longer about "willpower" to me.  It is about my character.  It is about who I want to be for myself, my husband, my children, and the people I love.  I have  been a source of strength to others in my life, but never a source of strength for myself when it came to my health and well being...When I was very young, say in my teens, I was a hottie.  I look back at those pictures and think "wow, you really didn't know how beautiful you were".  Then at the tender age of 16 my virginity was taken from me by rape...at 21 years of age it happened to me again....SO...I put on a "fat suit" for safety and here it has remained.  Keeping me safe and sequestered from the real world and real life...  I want to do REAL life now, i want to  play and laugh and run, I want to find the me I lost so long ago.  Stay strong???  I've been stronger than I realize for my whole life, this is just the next necessary step.